My fiRst LovE..!!

" We were both young wen I first saw u...I close my eyes n d flash bak starts..um standing dere..
now by the path i climbed,I journey bak
the trees not yet chopped..its been long..Takin with me ur memory and ur lack..i now descend into a milder day..!!"
i was in my jounr school..playin vit my bro..in d lush green fields of my locality..had a bit time left 2 return as it was getin dark..i was told 2 wait near a tree as he was goin 2 brin his frnd along vit us..!!after waitin fr 5 mins i saw 2 figurs appearin 4rm d dark..
after dat wat i still remembr is we 3 headed 2wards my house..unkown of d dark future..d freaky sleepless nites..d tender moments..d speacial whirly place he olready took in my heart...!!!
was i fallin into a deep abyss..4rm ver i had no escape..!!was i bein trapped..i had no clue..!!
lyf started movin as it was supposd 2..mercying 4 no1..
"On hot summer nites i dremt of u bside me near a mountain stream
cool in our bed of ferns we lie
lost in our lovin as d world slips by"
i was frequently cot,lost in thots..a vague picture in my mind..makin it d utmost reason of my living..!!
i frequently asked my self.. m i 2 small 2 fall in LOVE ,about vich i've herd my cousins gossipin bout??was it really love?? or ts jus a crazy flashes of him i was havin..??no wonder wat it was..i really needed him to make my "L" come b4 my "o"...n "V" b4 my "E"..!!
i saw myself waitin 4 him in d balcony..nt havin a hint ver he stays..wats his name..n wat he was 2 me??
bt trust me i didnt knu wthr God was trappin me in his maze ,or teachin me hw 2 love...
after months passed wen i was on d vrge of gettin rid of those aberrant thots...i had a glimpse of him again...!!n this time i tried searchin 4 ne kind of adore in his eyes if he had 4 me..bt found none..!!
bt this didnt stop me 4rm lovin him..(still unsure wen i frst came 2 kno dat it was love)..!!i bcame brainless wen i met him..d unshared thots left my mind scremin in darkness..was dere nethin good scripted in my life??love kept me up ol nites...trin to cover up d picture of his adoreless eyes..d cold heart he had 4 me..!!sumver i had feelings dat mayb at sum point in my lyf he'll luv me.."can my heart be so rong??"
"It was an uphill climb..i knu he'll come 2 me..i didnt want 2 surrender in this thing cald love..."!!
bt 1 day i came 2 kno derez sum1 else hu took away his heart!!I was standin on the edge didnt knu wat else 2 give..
"every thing u are ,evry thing u'll b touches the current of love so deep in me..All that I am..All that I'll be Means nothing at all If you can't be with me.."
tho my heart was broken..i realized my feeling increased day after day..d greatest feelin of regret haunted me.."did i make a mistake by nt letin him kno bout my feeling??"...i had no hint..
bt i was nva frustrated after lovin him 4 so many yrs...
evry time my realization dawnd after my classes ended... i spent d whole class writin my first name vit his last..!!i didnt hv a clue wat my teachers tot..
And if I die tomorrow I'd go down with a smile on my face..I thank God I've ever known you..I fall down on my knees..For all the lovely classes u tuk teachin me hw 2 luv..And through it all, one thing will always be true The special times are the times I share with you"!!!